Family

I normally do not get personal on here. This is pretty much strictly professional. the last 24 hours has been a whirlwind for me. I found my sister. I have been looking for her for years. I have wanted to have a relationship with her for such a long time, like all my life. Circumstances separated us and we were not raised together. We have had a lot of missed years. I knew that she was out there and I wanted to find her and I did--on facebook. Wow. I put her name in and she just came up and there she was. Her picture was right in front of me. I knew it was her the second I saw her eyes. My niece was with her and I just saw how beautiful she was.
I was very excited about this, but then about an hour later, I found out the brother I idolized growing up that I had also lost contact with, had died 4 years ago. I was so sad. I absolutely loved Chuck. I know I did not have a long life with him or anything, but I still loved him very much! He was my brother! My full blooded, I thought/think, biological brother.
Then about 5 minutes later, I found out that maybe the dad I thought was my dad all these years, may not be my dad. It is between 3 different men. Will the right sperm donor please stand up...lol. This has been crazy!
But I am very happy that I have been able to talk to my sister and start a relationship with her that should have been all along!
I really do not know what even tomorrow will bring, but I know that today I have a sister. A sister, I didnt have yesterday. She wrote on her facebook today that she is excited to have hooked up with me and she wont let me down like our mom did. That really touched me! I dont even know what to say about that. That is so special to me! That is probably one of the nicest things that have come out of this, so far!
I have gone through my life feeling so mixed up about family. I really do have a family now that I absolutely cherish. The Gearharts are a Godsend to me!!! But I have searched and searched for a connection. A biological connection where I belong, where I know for certain I am one of them. To even just look at them and see that our eyes are the same or know that I look like so and so in the family. I have sat around many families where they say comments like, "oh, you look just like Uncle Bob," or whatever. This was so nice to look at someone and say, you look like me.
I am very thankful right now to be able to say that. She even said that we might be full sisters because of how much we look alike. We really do. I could lose a little weight...lol, but she just gave me an incentive!!!
I look like someone. I have a biological sister that is claiming me as her sister. That is a great feeling!